Sorry blogger, I've moved back to LJ.
You can catch me here if you want: http://gctrix23.livejournal.com/

caribou pictures

whatevs

I want to be a good woman
And I want for you to be a good man
And this is why I am leaving
And this is why I cant see you no more
cause I dont want to be a bad woman
I cant stand to see you to be a bad man

I will miss your heart so tender
I will love this love forever
This is why I am leavin
And this is why I cant see ya no more
And this is why I am lying
When I say I dont love ya no more

I want to be a good woman
And I want for you to be a good man
And this is why I am leavin
And this is why I cant see ya no more
And this is why I am lying
When I say that I dont love you no more

many thanks to cat power

the market

dialogue:

cristina (age 6): mom, you should put our house on the market.
mom: what do you mean by that?
cristina: DUH mom, you do that so you can sell it.
mom: well, why do we need to sell our house?
cristina: well, you know, so you can get a lot of money for it and then you can buy us a bigger house in colorado.

kids are just way too much. i don't think i've ever known of a six year old using the phrase, "on the market" and knowing what it means!

love the kitty!

today

i really just feel like quitting school and going home.

shoeszorz!

on the upside, i got new shoes. actual shoes. not a metaphor for boy.

anger

i'm mad.

i feel like i always get tangled up in immature bullshit. i am tired of people blaming others for their own problems, making others feel bad for making the decision that was right for everyone involved, and blaming others for their own misery and issues.

i have issues. i am ok with that. i am not ok with people who pretend having issues is no big deal, and that you shouldn't have any issues because they don't, and they don't see a "reason" for you to have any. for anyone who has ever thought that about anyone else, especially if you were close to that person: FUCK YOU.

I am so over all of this nonsense. I don't need it in my life. i don't need it bringing me down. and i don't need someone who should be making me feel better- a "friend"- making me constantly feel like shit for being who i am.

i am so, so close to just saying "i'm done."

i'm tired of always being there. i'm tired of being a puppet. i'm tired of being blamed and feeling at fault for your inability to make a decision many years ago- and inability to do so to this day!

i have a lot of other, much more important things to deal with in my life right now, and all i am seeing is immaturity and pathetic things from people i expect a lot more from. it's not one specific person....there is just a lot of bullshit and meanness going on and i really don't want to get caught up in it.

but it seems i have (again) become the object of someone's (same person again too!) mean statements.

well you know what?
lets be completely objective about it. if the benefits are negative, it's time to give up.